I am very confused....=\

Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists. When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence.
~ Edmond and Jules de Goncourt

So lately I feel so stressed and worried!  I dont know what it is that makes me feel this way.  like today, I thought i was happy, but at the same time i wasnt in the mood to smile or anything.  And everyone kept asking me what was wrong...but i didnt think anything was.  I guess i finally will admit it...something is wrong...but dont ask me what it is cause i dont think i know.

My little sister came up to me just now and said..." He needs the toilet paper to clean his toilet!"
I love little kids! lol!

Why can't we all just skip Friday and go straight to saturday....?!  Im tired of having all these bad days, and i think its cause of all the random rudeness that i see from random people.  I dont think tomorrow is gonna go so well because of physics.  our projects are due tomorrow and I dont think my group is gonna finish! lol.  Im so stressed and scared.  It seems like i never do finish the projects and no matter how hard i seem to work on them, I dont get as good of a grade as I expected......oh well....Just one more day until the weekend!  I think this has been the longest week of my life!!!

thats the end I guess.....so here's a story to finish it off:

 Malachi 3:3 says: "He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver."

 This verse puzzled some women in a Bible study and they wondered
what this statement meant about the character and nature of God.

 One of the women offered to find out the process of refining silver
and get back to the group at their next Bible Study.

 That week, the woman called a silversmith and made an appointment to
watch him at work. She didn't mention anything about the reason for her interest
beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver.

 As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the
fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one
needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames
were hottest as to burn away all the impurities.

 The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot; then she
thought again about the verse that says:

"He sits as a refiner and purifier of silver."

 She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined. The man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the fire. If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be destroyed.

 The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, "How do
you know when the silver is fully refined?"

 He smiled at her and answered, "Oh, that's easy -- when I see my image in it"

~~~~~"Listen to this song.....Does it remind you of anyone?"~~~~~

I lost it all
You got it back
Believed in me
When I gave up on myself again

A sudden rain
Revealed your face
I knew right then
No matter where
I go I'd have your hand to hold

We will sink and
We will swim
Til' the ocean turns to sand
We will laugh
We will cry
Til' there's no more breath inside
Cause we will sink
But we will swim

I was,
A tender reed
Bent in the wind
And then the storm had passed
And you helped me stand upright again

So here we are
Nothing to lose
So take my hand
We'll jump right in
The water's warm
It's time to live

We will sink and
We will swim
Til' the ocean turns to sand
We will laugh
We will cry Til' there's no more breath inside
Cause we will sink
But we will swim

It doesn't rain
For nothing
It will shine
For you

We will sink and
We will swim
Til' the ocean turns to sand
We will laugh
We will cry
Til' there's no more breath inside
Cause we will sink
But we will swim

~~~~~ "Yeah...its us" ~~~~~

~~~Listen to this song.....Does it remind you of anyone?"~~~

There's no holding you back when you're leaving
I'll have to face it alone until tomorrow
And as your fading away
I know it's a matter of hours til the tears begin
Guess I'll turn out the lights and I'll settle in

For the long one
For the restless night
As your memory fades with no end in sight
It's a strong one and it holds on tight
Laying in the darkness
Praying for the morning sun
It's a long one

I've been through this before it wasn't easy
I think I'm ready this time
I think I'm ready
I'll lay down on this bed and then
I'll imagine your touch and I'll see your face
And the shadows will come and surround this place

For the long one
For the restless night
As your memory fades with no end in sight
It's a strong one and it holds on tight
Laying in the darkness
Praying for the morning sun
It's a long one

These days go by so fast
I just turn around then they're gone
And when the night time goes
It's long and lonely
Holding on and on

For the long one
For the restless night
As your memory fades with no end in sight
It's a strong one and it holds on tight
Laying in the dark
Praying for the morning sun
It's a long one
It's a long one

Its weird how everything can change in such a small amount of time.  But if I think about it, it seems like i knew the whole time that it was going to end...maybe not the whole time...At one point I guess I thought I could never lose you.  But towards the end, I knew it was ending.  It changed slowly, yet ended so suddenly.  Im sorry its this way.  I dont know how to fix it anymore, and I'm tired of trying when it seems like you dont want it fixed. 

 Im sorry.
    ~~Amber